好讨厌..后悔...

今天我妈带我，我妹和表姐去逛街买过年的衣服。

刚开始，我看中了好几件我向往已久的衣服。我好喜欢它们的剪裁，设计与颜色。

现在的经济，你知我知。所以就打算走完了，打了算盘，再到回去刚才的衣店，试穿，然后买下。

走到半路，我们走失了。我打我妹的手机，告诉她们，到回刚才吃东西的三楼。结果，我不懂她听什么，把我妈带到一楼。我和表姐在那里等了好久都没见她们，我就再次打给我妈。

就这样，我被臭骂了一顿。已经开始有点不耐烦了。忍。

到了那店，由于不想伤害无辜，就拿出了专业演员的精神，笑得还蛮自然的。表姐告诉我，我妈有买到衣服了，就不会生大脾气了。拿了我要的衣服就去试穿啦。

走出来照照镜子。好适合我噢。。。

首先是一件军青色的上衣，但我妈一直要我换深粉红色，因为我拿的那件衣服上面有一条薄胶。我妈怕我洗不起，就一直坚持要粉红。接下来是一件紫色和白色的衣服。我穿了都觉得很适合我，很想把它们都买下。

我妈叫我买一件裤。我看了好久，也找了好久，就是找不到我要的直管剪裁。那招待员帮我选了几件，让我试穿。颜色不错，就是不喜欢它的剪裁。现在流行V型的剪裁，但我已经够长啦，不想在加长，再加上我真的很不喜欢那种剪裁，所以推了好多件。

我自认自己是属于运动型女生，所以真的不太适合。我妈还死硬要我买下。那时我爸打来。我在试穿，所以没听见。被臭骂了一大顿。这时，我只能说，忍耐是有限的。

付钱的是我妈，所以全都只有她说话。看见柜台上的衣服，是那件我不喜欢的粉红衣服和那件讨厌的剪裁裤，那时的心情已经被彻底糟蹋了。

一想起，刚才我妈，我妹和我表姐都买这种粉红，我就想吐白沫。人家若看见了，我想他们的想法应该是，哇！这家人都是粉红癖的。

心情不爽就发泄啦。我竟然发泄在另一个在跟我妈谈价的人。从RM28的衣服，我一开口就杀RM15。那个人看着我傻眼。他应该没见过像我这样的年纪会杀价杀得那么狠的吧。算他幸运咯。看到他和我家人的反应，心情明显好了点。就放低到RM20。刚开始，他不答应。后来拿我们没办法，就让步了。我在这里谢谢你。

我妈是好了点。不过就是一直念我。说我走到现在还没买到鞋。再加上赶时间，让我更迫撤了。

试穿了好多双，都没有一双是我喜欢的，是我想要的。被念了好久，终于忍无可忍了。我发疯就选了我最最最最最最最最。。。。。。。不喜欢的款式。因为是我妈选的，所以最开心的是她。我气到差点开杀戒。庆幸看到碧玉。上前打了个招呼。我就走了。

我的心情已经快要沸腾了，还有一度就沸腾了。回到家，拼命打枕头直到倒下为止。我妈来电，我妹告诉她我的状况，我又挨洗了。说什么孝顺，我不想多说。听完了，自个儿躺在那里流泪。

我做错事了。我不应该买下那些我不喜欢的东西。真后悔。

没用了。都买了。下次若有人在我逛街买东西，做决定的时候干扰我的心情，我保证，没有下次。

high到爆胎

Oh, 好high好high
今天有人说我帅
丽湄听了呕吐呕吐
差点呜呼哀哉
看她吐到可怜就对她说:
“瓦哉hyah丽低汹瞎密赛.
哀哉哀哉,
捧熊垮瓦狼仅亲菜,
加捧佑沟北派.
己实捧熊瓦帅诶光彩,
diam diam吼令归嘞穷豆,沟劳把赛.”
凄惨凄惨,你怎么给我那样的对待
好坏好坏,都是因为你常说聊斋
害得我现在有点怪,有点怪
oh my, oh my
我卖你一包tissue一块
要就快,要就快
难道你没听说过三轮车跑得快
oh, 还没完,还没完
那人还说我打球时很像在跳舞
怎么说,怎么说
就是你在打球时好像在rap球的节奏
跳hip hop一样, Yo Yo man, check this out.
oh, 好可爱,好可爱
最擅用脚步把我的注意力引开
还能单手三分与怪角度投蓝
oh, 怪胎,怪胎
但又好帅好帅, yeah
帅出你的style来, 自high自high
丽湄看不顺眼给了我五百块, ouch
看见周公就say hi, say hi
再加一个high 5,我们就要开始 raptai
Rap到三更周公累了把我送回来
嘴里还唱着:“送你离开,千里之外”
唉,喝奶喝奶
我这就向你们say good night.

翻译:
“我知道你在想什么赛.
要知要知,
平常看我人 ‘青菜’,
这朋友还不错.
其实平常我帅的光彩,
常常被你们几个笑倒,还流眼淚.”

1st time rap, bie guai bie guai..

答案出炉了...

除了谢谢, 还是谢谢你. 谢谢你的到来, 谢谢你的回答, 谢谢你给我的一切... 更要谢谢你给的答案.

大家忙考试.我却在此吊儿郎当的.真不自爱啊...

迟些再来写日记, 外加update你不在的世界吧!

还有五天要战呢! 保重哦!

好奇 * 一叶

风车... 注定要随风吗?
大海... 不能永远和天空连成一线吗?
风... 的旋律谁听见了?
火... 永远只能火辣辣吗?
心情... 一定得随己之欲吗?
心思... 能永远随风而翼吗?
浪子... 能永远回头吗?
爱情... 不能全都是好结局吗?
友情... 承诺的约定不能永远被守护吗?
亲情... 不能只永远有快乐吗?
性格... 不能只固定一个吗?
毅力... 不能每个人都长久坚定吗?
他... 不能一直陪在我身边吗?
你... 不能只守护着我吗?
我... 能一直活在自我的中心吗?
雨... 不能一直傾盆吗?
云... 不能让我每天都摸得着吗?
烟... 不能只停留在手掌心上飞舞吗?
头发... 只能在你指尖缠绕吗?
等待... 需要相信吗?
这一切的一切... 都是定理吗?
... 还是注定啊?

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虽然... 这首很乱... 尽请原谅...
不过... 有答案请回答吧!
先此致谢.

我 不安 * 一叶

昨天
. . . 不安的心情涌上心头

痛苦
. . . 又不是 , 错乱吧 ?

感觉
. . . 我就站在你视线的尽头
. . . 就像天空和海连在一线之间

夕阳随时
. . . 就在一眨眼之间
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 消失在眼前

突然
. . . 你很耀眼
. . . . 我就在暗淡的角落 . . .
. . . . . . . . 折射你的光芒
. . . . . . . . 发出我微微的光 . . .

不想
打扰你现在的生活 . . .
. . 让爱的旋律缠绕 ,
. . . 穿插在你的脚间
. . . . . 弄乱你的规律 ,
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 就在那一瞬间 . . .

你的答案?? ...

看了藤井树的<<这是我的答案>>后 ,
我很想知道你的答案 ...
单单相信我会等你 ...
能让你安心吗 ?

也许 ...
但对我起不了作用 ...
是我差劲吗 ?
不懂 ...
我真的 不懂 ...

书里的最后一句是 :
[ 当我爱上她的时候 , 我会第一个告诉你的 . ]

那你呢 ?
迟来的答案 ...
我没有把握能接受得了 ...
我能只给你三个月的时间吗 ?
也就是spm后 ...
在你去ns以前 ...

当你看到了 ...
请回答我 ...
好吗 ?

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18/8 d...

early morning go tuition d... morning gt drop little rain...

nt little drops bt d rain very wen rou... din drop down heavyly til bcum running cats n dogs...

tend my idioms again d... beh tong nya... bu sama dia... BUU........



bt during ttn really rain heavyly leh... realy hope tat time gt d bravery 2 stand up in front of so many ppl n run out of d class n outside... juz 2 hav tat feeling under d rain drops...



ignore ppl's comment...

ignore ppl's scolds...

ignore ppl's dan xing...

ignore evry1's chun zai...



bt i'll nvr hav tat chance i think...



juz like cikgu yap said, u juz hav 2 walk up d stage n stand thr for a few second den cum down... tat 1 i oso nt daring 2 do already... so nonid 2 say stand up in front of so many ppl n ran out frm d class... nt saying tat i hate d class or nt wanting 2 attend d lesson... juz 1 2 ran out... tats all...



mayb...

1 day...

when u see my eyes...

n thr is no flash in it...

tat would b my thyroid tking over....

for my whole body...

my soul...

even my spirit...

although it is under d law of sumtin...

ignore...

my thyroid wil giv me strength...

n by tat time...

i'll made it...



hope u can see it...

5555~~~~

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.................................

can ani1 tell me y me din kena ns????????????

my dad dun1 let me go leh...

gud news or bad news???
me dun1 noe lah...
i juz wanna go...!!!!!!!!

sicked 3 days d... out world miss me boh??
wormit 3 days...
din slip well 3 days...
head spin 3 days...
fever 1 day...
d worst is...
notin goes in my stomach 3 days d...

haiz...
my body line turn back in2 last time lidi d...
so... unhappy...

bye d...
daddy 1 cum back d...

spm good luck ooh...

no mood no mood!!!

arrrh.....
evrytin oso no mood hw 2 face d exam nxt wik????
2day play bball oso no mood...
study oso no mood...
listen story oso no mood...
wat ting can make me got mood???

so fan...~

ani help??? sos???

watever...
out is stil out...
wait til 21st bah...
nt time 2 get freedom yet...

gambateh 2gether bah...

cheer 4 jie ooh==== ^^

jiang ye yao guan!

haiyo... ppl punya dai ji she oso 1 2 care... juz ponteng once oni mah... dun like mah dun like loh... i dun hav ur blood in my body okay... u dun like mah dun like lah... i din force u 2 like woh...

u 1 2 kay por urself u kay por lah... dun touch my business... NEVER!!!

i hate tat so much... dun make me in2 a devil 1 day...

tat incidence supose 2 happen in a few year ago... b4 i acept Jesus Christ as my savior... althou already 3 years... doesn't means tat it has totally froze n broken in me...

i hav hatrate out of me bt d devil stil in me...
waiting 2 explode frm me 1 day...
waiting 2 ruin me 1 day...
waiting 2 kill me 1 day...
waiting 2 bluf me...
waiting 2 tell me tat my hatrate hav been install in2 my thyroid n now its time 4 it 2 explode...

b4 tat time cum... i shall went sumwhere else...
2 prevent hurting jie...
2 prevent hurting yin...
2 preevent hurting ling...
2 prevent hurting my brother n sister...
2 prevent hurting my sis...
2 prevent hurting my frenz...
n d most...
2 prevent letting my grandparents know tat news...
so tat i can stil remain my best impression in them b4 they leave me 1 day...
tat wil hurt a lot if they knew...
my mum...?
ignore n dun tell her 2...
coz she hav her family 2 work on...
dun ruin her n her life either...
so dun her 2...
2 prevent ruining her life style...

any1 left at d corner tat i haven't said?
i dun think so...
if there is sum1... sorry 2 tell u d truth...
u r nt in my heart...
nt even a place in my rank...

21st year wilb freedom year... BEWARE!!!
freedom hav eyes... it wil bring u 2 d death velley...
i 1 freedom bt i wilb d master of my freedom nt d salve...

... hao yu men oh ...

2day... teach zhao yin n yong lynn their tango loh... although i'm nt certifite 1... haha... bt sims pro enuf... hehe...



many work 2 do loh... 2moro stil wanna check 3 science subject 1 books 2gather... hope dun tiok me lah... pray 4 me oh...



after tis bio chapter... i really can teach n xplain 4 d kid in my bus leh... me like dai kah jieh in tat bus since form 1... stil remember d battle btwn form 5 n form 3 in bus... tat time duno TKN is poh kim's classmate... she very rude 1 leh... rude words all came out frm her mouth... after tat add more form 5 ppl 2gther battle wif 5 of us... fan zheng nt our fault... dun bother them lah... v juz like 2 sing in d bus sitting 2gather n laugh loudly n chickyly oni mah... like tat oso de zui tiok them... gt 2 call ear specialist came 2 check their ears...

haiz... nt much 2 say... g2g nw... bye..

so fan~~~

3 years d... y tis guy kip on chasing me??? hate... but good news 4 2day is... d bkue house win d bball match... hooray... d purple team play rough... speed... but i vote blue team coz got frens dare ma... best frens r in dare leh... i already btray quite sumtime d... not 4 tis time... so i skip choir half n hour earlier... sorry, choir...

listen 2 jie's talk... i felt so heavy 4 her... 2day she got tears rolling in her eyes oni... so jian qiang...
i muz learn tat kung fu 2... very useful 4 n xcuse... :p

really... i do 1 2 cry during d nite most lah... coz so many years d i cried during midnite especially... no1 heard me sobbing in my pillow... or heard my heart shouting out 2 d air... but tat 1 past by d... as ko~ said: 2moro is a new day... so, i muz take d challenge althou i hav thousands n thousands of unwilling 2... according 2 King Leonidas's said in the Spartan wars: 'There Is No Surrender.' [wil tat b 2 man 4 me???] [ignore]

...can I cry...

no mood 4 bball... no mood 2 hav fun... no mood 2 do my homework... evrytin cums 2 me in neutral mood... m I neutral now...? tat answer mayb yes.. if I say I hav releaze sum1 hu was important 2 me... but no.. if I say i hav nowhere 2 cry......

I really wan 2 cry out.. bt is juz nowhere 2 release...d pain.. d stress.. n d hate... ran out in d middle of a match.. making evry1 juz stared at me like they juz got electric shock.. n lose d match... juz bcoz me.... sorry my teammates... I can nvr b a good teammate.. dun evr trust me any more... I juz can't accept wat I hav done...

my dad lose his temper almos evryday now on... tis canot, tat canot... so headaching me out... tis morning, I told him I cum bek late evening... he is d 1 hu call me 2 come bek straight after schul.. juz now rang home n said: I no u 2day 1 2 stay in schul juz 2 hang around wif frens n playing around... is tat a matter 2 him... or is tat freaking him out 4 I'm gona caught by stranger...

leave me alone... change my schedules... trying 2 change my life style... u r winning!!! u win! n d price 4 d is d worst result I wil get 4 u... bcoz u duno tat I'm a left thinker! I nid dark 2 activate my mind... dun u try understand me more den shouting at me???

give me a break.. I nid peace.. 2 much tings in my mind... ko~, went 2 US d.. juz release sumbody frm my life.. I hav no1 2 talk 2.. xcept 4 jie.. but she got her problems 2... juz 1 2 cry by borrowing yin's shoulder.. or a dark corner, crying wif jie as i hav promise her... 1 more important ting is... dun make me 2 btray my frens, dad... I fil very very very(x n time) sorry 4 them... u alwaiz put me in a 2 junction, which is d ways i hate so!!! dun make it again. or I really duno wat colour will I be looking 2moro...

好swt的一天...

可恶! 今天英文节, 老师叫我们讨论presentation的资料.. 什么都想不到, 所以就拿出我《不用客气》的原稿出来欣赏... 又想到兆茵还没看, 所以就让她先看... 怎么知道! 那个家伙竟然拼命的和素玲合演这一幕.. 真是过分! 只不过是一句: 口里的口香被你吸尽 而已嘛! 竟然来个夸张的一幕, 害我们都笑了整天... 活该啊! 休息节, 伊惠和洁莹来找我.. 很高兴.. 但是我必须赶功课... 原谅我,洁莹... 一个叫我出去陪洁, 然后另一个又叫我回班... 真糟糕...

好辛苦...

今天的猫...压抑得好好好辛苦噢.......答应要告诉哥哥什么是猫....但却不懂要怎么表达...好危险..差点就......抱歉,哥...真庆幸我没发泄在你身上...没让你留下去美国以前的阴影..也抱歉...让你误会了我的用语...一路平安咯,我最帅的哥哥...

2day...teachers r so mad...

1st period: Mr. Gan[moral]
I close my eyes 2 kip my eyes from drying out, but he actually throw a mineral bottle which is full of water on my desk..juz 2 wake me up.so nuke! yet, i raise up in slow motion. evry1 was scared except 4 me n yin [she's d 1 who sleep]. she is very angry! i m d mangsa. well... i 4give his unknown. thank god.

next period till school end:
in conclusion:evry teacher in our school no this incident...so boring...nothing special but yet S5G is famous...again...[hey!not my fault!]

不用客气

上个星期 无比甜蜜
压抑已久的心情 现在成为甜蜜

一封信息 一星期后才回信
对你的感觉要变零

对不起 不用客气
一直挂在我两的话题

突来的消息 使你再次放不下去
给我的回忆 我会珍惜

最后的一期 是最后的甜蜜
拥抱着你 使我不想放弃
口里的口香 被你吸尽

庆幸
早来的自知之明
让我没那么伤心
但 今天的你
我不会忘记

一把绿剪刀

"过来拿文具咯!" 幼儿园的班级任边说边拿出几个五彩缤纷的盒子。全班的同学都一窝蜂冲上前面，只有我，还傻呆呆的站在自己的位子，看着大家在抢文具。



傻着傻着，忽然有一个男生挤出人群，满意地看着手上的一把剪刀。他看见我还站在那里，就跑过来，把剪刀递给我。我更傻的看着右手里的剪刀，再把眼神移到他的双眸。四目交接中，他忽然杀出一句话："这把剪刀有点紧，我帮你拉松。" 说着就把剪刀拿回去，很用力的开关了几次。



"给你。" 又朝人群跑回去，挤进人群里，让我找不着他的身影。看着自己手上的绿剪刀。总觉得它的绿色好美，好特别。那把剪刀就跟随着我十二年了。每次都觉得它最好用了，不紧不松的，很配合我的力道。



一个星期前，我把它借给班上的一位同学。结果，现在可好了。六月十七日中午十二点正，我向她要回我的剪刀。不见了，就这样一句让我哭了。保养了那么多年的剪刀，唯一的幼儿园记忆就这样不见了。那把绿剪刀，是一个常被我欺负的男生，一个被我好玩而吻了头额的男生，帮我抢来的剪刀。。。。。。